Waiting . . . .

It was around in february when I applied for Google through one of my friends friend. He gave me and that my profile is good enough and hopefully I would get a telecon from the Google guys. I waited for a few days then. But when I didnt receive any communication from their, I lost the hope and stopped waiting and I though this chapter is closed here itself. But suddenly one day in April after (approx 2 months) I received a call from the Google HR and she said that they would like to take me in their process. It was a sudden surprise for me, but took it as a blessing in disguise. Disguise...why so!!because I was loking for a change and wasn't able to figure out where else to apply after I got an offer from MS.
She said me that if shortlisted, I would get an email and would receive a telecon from Mt. View. Though I didn't get any such mail but yea one night I did get a call from Mt. View at around 11 in the night. It was a total surprise for me and I didnt get any time for getting nervous or tensed, forget about the prep for this huge interview. But thank God it was very simple and I faired well. (Though later I learnt that the first one was simple for everybody).
Well I cleared this round and now it was the time to go to Hyderabad and visit the much talked about Google Office. I wont say it Campus because it wasn't. It was just one floor in a building. But the moment you enter inside you can sense that all the hype about it wasnt false. The Google T-shirts worn by almost evrybody were fascinating. For the first time I did an electronic signature and signed a Non Disclosure agreement befor entering the campus with a slip pasted on my pocket.
Had a lunch straight away and the cafeteria was cool with all kinds of eatables. Baskets full of fruits, fridge full of juices, milk, soft drink cans. The cubicles were a little small and congested though.
Had 4 rounds of my interviews and quite unexpectedly I was doing well in them.
After that the sweet HR- Anuradha had a chat with me after a wonderful lunch which had a huge variety of food: 5-6 kinds of salad, 3 types or rice,curd, some south Indian dishes(didnt like this part:(), fruits and yea Subway sandwiches. Anuradha told me that they would still take a lot of time in getting the final results and I started counting the days from that day onwards(oops!! I forgot to tell that this was May 11, 2007). So, in the meanwhile I could be just hopeful with a Google T-shirt(which was a small gift from their side) packed in my cupboard which I decided to wear on the day I get some final answer from their side.
After returning back, the painful period of waiting started. On monday I came to know that Krishna(the M-Tech guy from IIT B whom i met in my room in the guest house arranged by Google)had got a personal info form. That was an indication from their side" Dude, you have finished the technical rounds and we are considering you further but still dont start partying as you stand more chanes to be rejected than selected"...sounds weired na but it happens. It took me even one more week to receive this indication and in the middle of that waiting period I again started having a very strong feeling that my dream is again going away from me though I was still having a bright hope in deep of my hearts and at last I received this form on May 21. As I didnt want to delay my processing further I filled up the form and mailed it back on the same day, whereas Krishna took 3 days for the same :P.
The waiting period after this was the most painful. I knew that I had got an indication that I have cleared the technical rounds but as stated earlier their was equal probability of being rejected even now. To add upon my anxiety, Krishna got an offer after two days along with this other fellow batchee. My anxiety has got worse now. I mailed to Hr, no response from her side. Even tried calling her up, but no response. Everyday, their has been hardly any moment when I am not thinking of all this and then analyzing both sides of coin: what if I dont get thro :( and what if I really get through:). Going thro the biggest suspense period of my life. I have waited for the results in the past also, but that time I could judge how I have done, what I deserve and thus I could approximate what would i get. But here, I know how I have done but I dont know anything else. I have done my part of performing and whats left on my part is wait...wait...wait...!!!.